coffee and phone calls in the night

My site sucks. Been having major problems with gettng the color exact. SHeeeesh.
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It's friday (hurrah!) and will try to NOT spend for the weekend. It sucks thinking about the incident two days ago. I do hope it turns out for the best. Yesterday was soooo....i dunno. It was a weird day, to say the least. BUt at least the evening turned out to be interesting.

Met herb accidentally in Katipunan.I was walking from the video store (i rented a Kubrick docu) and acting all gloomy and stuff when i spotte dhere from afar. Man, it was really good to bump into her cos i didn't have text and i really wanted to see some familiar faces! We got around to talking while having coffee and it was pretty fun! Might venture into a quick tutorial part-time soon with her (hope it pushes through) so i can get some moolah... argh. time sare hard, especially when you lose stuff.
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Had a chance to talk with Haydz last night. It was really good talking to her about stuff, catching up on stuff and news. I was pleasantly surprised i got to talk to her on the phone for that long (about 2-3 hours) --- haven't spent talking on the phone that long in a while. We got to talk about teh weirdest things --- Winnie the Pooh (complete with the theme song), Enid Blyton, HS kadahs gone somewhere, quick money making schemes (hehehe) and eventual world domination. Woohoo.
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Started smoking again. Argh.I gotta stop doing this.

dammit

i lost my cellfone last night. YEp. STUPID ME.
I've berated myself enough last night to last me a lifetime. I feel so damn stupid about it, not to mention really pissed because , really, who in their right minds would lose a phone so easily? My mom gave me hell for it too. I don't really want to go into the details of it because i'm mentally kicking myself in the ass right now. Phooey. My mom (in short of a lecture) gave me one of her "how can you do this!?" moments last night on the phone (i called her from a payphone) and i just snapped.
Oh Shit.
I lost my fone before (it was broken) so i decided to invest in a new one. Being the picky gal that i am, i had to get one of the new ones. Good thing i got myself a new SIM to go with it otehrwise i'd be bawling my eyes out until eternity. It's harsh to lose a phone ( an expensive one at that) but more hurtful to me is my loss of contacts. My previous loss gave me nightmares because in it i had contacts of people i RARELY see, let alone talk to, so it was really hard to get their numbers.
I cannot imagine myself without a phone. seriously. at a certain point during my frantic and helpless state (upon realizing my loss) i actually started remembering all the names listed on that phone --- the contacts, the numbers i wasn;t able to store into my old SIM (kulang space eh)... argh.
Anyway, after much thinking, i pondered on what my uncle told me last night: "It's just material stuff. The person who got it (though ill-gotten it may be) hopefully would use the money to feed his family or his kid". My uncle is such a sweet guy. I just hope he's right. (Whoever got my fone better have good intentions because Karma sucks bigtime --- be warned).

i think i'm in love...

...with this!!!

please GOD lemme have enough money to buy this baby (or have somebody really nice buy it for me hahaha)

exhibit whathaveyous

It's my org's 1-day exhibit right now at the Shangri-La hotel. IRA has invited us to showcase some works from published members and i must say, this is a glitzy affair. Had fun last night setting up. Kahit konti lang kami, it was good to get together with the members, especially the alumni who were very kind to help out.

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I keep thinking about the plans to leave... mom and I talked about this over the weekend and it's getting better and better (the idea i mean. At least even if it's really expensive to get out, once i get settled there i may be able to pay that back and more. I just hope i get that chance to...

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Had coffee and dinner with Haydz before the setup, and it was really good ot see her again. Told her about her bro's blog(a good read, and pretty intresting insights on stuff), as well as news from home. It's good to hear she's pursuing the arts as passionately as her siblings. (Kudos to Tara for winning the Urian, btw). We passed the time by sharing a smoke and catching up, while checking out some pretty good sale buys in Shang (unfortunately, i had the bug--- the shopping bug!)

Bought myself a scandalously priced pair of shoes (the pair i've been eyeing for sooo long at the Shoe Salon). I know i'm gonna pay for it big time soon, especially since i promised myself i will be saving starting this month (oh darn.) But it's just soooo nice... i guilty, i feel like Imelda for spending so much on a pair (But hey, at least i spent it with my own money and didn't have to steal from the nation). I'd like to consider this my "investment for the month". Hahaha.

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belated Happy Birthday Roselle!

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I just realized m gonna be older three months from now. Shit.

I am officially starting over...

...with my blogging.

It's been weird posting on several sites (including my much-suffering site) but i am glad to start over with this blog. I actually read a couple of online journals before finally deciding to start one (again).

happy Birthday Roselle! :-)

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I can't believe it'll be the end of July soon. I wish i can get out of this place. I mean really out. I went home recently to spend the weekend in the province. It was great, got to see my mom and brothers, plus we got to start off the apers for the immigration to Canada. I'm excited but at the same time fearful. I really hope we can get out. My brother and I are being asked to study French. Wow. Fun. At least now i have a good reason to stop postponing the lessons. :P
The waiting is about 18-24 months, but at least we started with it already. I can't wait to move out and work there. Not that i'm not nationalistic or anything, but i do want a good future for my family (should there be any) and frankly, Pinas is the LAST place i would think of settling down in... and at least i can save up for the trip muna.

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I miss a lot of people. I really do. The time the plane landed in Manila yesterday, i felt the overwhelming sense of emptiness all over again. At least in Iloilo you don't feel it as much. The bizaare routine my family has in the morning drowns out most of the unhappiness i seem to drown myself in most of the time. :-S

lyrically inclined... ???

Hmmm. Going through my journal blogs have been depressing. I've actually compiled enough lyrics to have me a song book :-P Nway, i've decided to trim it down to these three songs (hahahhaha):


Amber - 311

Brainstorm
take me away from the norm
I got to tell you something
this phenomenon
I had to put it in a song
and it goes like

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
you ought to know what brings me here
you glide through my head blind to fear
and I know why
whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

You live too far away
your voice rings like a bell anyway
don't give up your independence
unless it feels so right
nothing good comes easily
sometimes you gotta fight

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
launched a thousand ships in my heart, so easy
still it's fine from afar, and you know that
whoa, brainstorm take me away from the norm
whoa, I got to tell you something

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2 trick pony
-sandwich
i want to move on
not realizing i was moving too slow
tried to hang on
but there was nothing left for me to hold on
it's such a shame that you can't
be with me tonight
i'm spinning round in cycles
hope you change your mind
before this show is over
i look around it's you i thought i'd find
been on standby
not realizing i've been moving too slow
instant replay
but then there was nothing i could do about it
still in denial
i can't believe that you can do this to me
no lights ahead
i've been looking forward but i couldn't see

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WHITE FLAG (this is for YOU)
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

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